I am on my slip covered couch and staring at ashes from last night fire while homeschooling echoes through our home but in my heart I am somewhere completely different. In my heart, If I close my eyes I can picture it, I am on a white sand beach at sunset, I am in the middle of beautiful green pastures, I am walking through a peony and rose filled garden. In my heart I am in all these places with the only One who could be in these places with me. He meets me in the stillness of my soul and as I exhale I can close my eyes and see such sweet fulfillment as we spend time together.
To be honest, it has been a very busy and very stressful season so far. The garland on my tree which still has no lights seems was thrown up on it while I was headed out the door. A cable guy came to fix our TV and had to take all my mantle décor off so that’s still scattered in various places around the room. I have three gifts bought (insert nervous emoji here), so there’s that. I could go on but I don’t think you need any more visual of the cluttered space in which I’m sitting. Clutter is confusing and causes uneasy feelings especially if it exists in our hearts.
A chaos covered heart cannot bring peace and contentment but Jesus can. He can organize our craziness way better than we could. He has a way of slipping in and simply clearing the confusion so we can see Him better.
This is what I’m figuring out: I may be in the middle of chaos colored Christmas lights but in the stillness of my soul He meets with me. He whisks me away into His presence and nothing else matters. It all migrates to a back burner, every cluttered detail and He takes priority releasing a warmth in my heart that only comes from coming home.
I feel like in this world we are addicted to the fast and the fury, the speed and the noise. The “one more meeting”, and then the exhaustion that hits us at the end of the day. We’re running on a high until we run out of air and then we come back to the arms of the healer and He revives our weary souls once again. In my quiet time God has been guiding me so sweetly to remain calm in His presence and listen for His voice.
With Him I am Home and that’s all the matters. So I’m challenging myself as I write this to remember to let me soul become still and sit a little longer in His presence. To let Jesus be the one who clears the clutter of my heart so I can see Him more clearly. Wanna join me?